Unconditional Love

I am so selfish!  I or my children have been sick for the past 4 weeks.  I have missed church and have not been spending time with my creator.  My house is a mess and my attitude stinks.  Today this cycle will end.  The first and greatest commandment is to Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.  Loving him is having an attitude of grattitude (pardon the rhyme :) all of the time, even when I am sick.  Loving him is serving my family with a greatful heart.  I don't love him through my words of love, I love him through my actions and reactions, my dedication and my thankfulness.  Thank you Father for washing me clean of this grose mess that covers my body.  Savior Redeemer, Son of the Most High; thank-you for giving your body for me. 

My Peaceful Place-my backyard

My Daily Take on Peace

⁴ Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! ⁵ Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. ⁶ Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. ⁷ And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Peace to the soul is possible.  I imagine that you must think that peace is a feeling, a rest, a symptom free feeling that you get when you...  adhere to what Philippians 4:6 states.  First it says not to be anxious about anything and I constantly fail at this and then there is that great little preposition in which Paul includes "BUT".  "BUT in every situation by prayer and petition", to me says that he is already aware that I don't know how to do this on my own  meaning that he gives me a way to not be anxious and to say "this is BIGGER than who I am DADDY and I submit to you and I will stop and be still in who you are." Then I receive his perfect peace.  I am not speaking about temporary peace I am meaning peace of the soul, being able to know without a doubt his presence and focus on the truth and allowing him to do the next thing...wash the next dish, change the next diaper or spank the next bottom.  I may be shaking and in fact sometimes still crying but somehow he takes over.  We are all his.  Everything here is his.  Nothing is ours.  Temporal problems seem so traumatic at the point when which they are occurring.  But I find peace in just surrendering,  for example recently we have faced what some would call MAJOR financial turmoil.  Each new thing that pops up is causing us to pay a fee or have an even bigger consequence.  After my silly crazy emotional meltdown I then begin to almost snicker, it's almost as if the Holy Spirit knocks me over the head with laughter and I am able to say" Father this is all yours and if this is the way you want to spend you money then I will submit, even though it looks radical to me I don't know anything and everything I do know is only given to me through wisdom that you have allowed me to receive".  Shew... after that the pressure is all off of me and given back to him.  Though to him it's no pressure, it's just doing what he does best...being God.

Beginning My Journey

Well two plus weeks ago my journey began.  God has been speaking to me for quite a while about being healthy.  I am the type of person who is all or nothing.  I have tried everything from extreme dieting to an intense exercise regime and everytime I fail.  It came to my attention that I have not started by asking my savior to guide me.  I started reading The Knowledge of the Holy by A. W. Tozer.  I must admit that I am learning so much about the Holy One.  HE is high and lifted up on his throne and I must not only think about him that way but I must visualize him sitting on his Holy seat being so bright that even a sinner such as me has no athority to approach him.  But because he gave apart of himself , precious Jesus, I can now be in constant conversation with him.  Wow, why wouldn't I want to spend every second of everyday getting to know him.  I found this hard (before) because I was lazy and didn't take the time to educate myself on who he is.  I went by what I had learned in Seminary or learned growing up.  Granted I read my bible but recently God has crossed my path with a titus 2 woman.  She is teaching me how to get to know God and how to see things through his perspective and not my emotional mess of a vision.  When we put God in the place where he belongs (on the Throne) we are relieved of ten thousand temporal problems.  The small everyday problems in which we have absolutly NO control over are lifted and only Eternity weighs heavy.  I can testify that this statment once said by Tozer is unquestionably happening in my life.  When I began to invision him as he is, what I began to notice is that I wasn't concerned about my daughter having a temper tantrum and it effecting my flow, I was more concerned about her salvation, her eternity.  I am reminded so often before I speak of this precious decision she will make one day.  Will she love the Jesus that is portrayed by her Sunday School teachers ( love them) or will she want to except the Jesus of a Momma who is angry, sad, depressed, anxious, overweight and unhealthy?  She is going to see who Jesus through her Momma.  I don't ever want to portray him as being smaller than what he is.  HE is bigger than anything and everything I could ever imagine.  I dont' even have the ability to imagine and I have to be ok with that.



Titus 2:3 -Thank you to my titus 2 woman who allowed her to be used by my precious and mighty FATHER.