For a year now I have been meeting with my special friend. My mentor. God has spoken to my heart to much through her. She is my Titus 2 woman. "Older women likewise are to be reverent in behavior, not slanderers or slaves to much wine. They are to teach what is good, and so train the young women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled, pure, working at home, kind, and submissive to their own husbands, that the word of God may not be reviled."
She is a complete example of that. It was a few months ago I realized that she was not God through watching her let Jesus fight her battle with Parkinson's:) . Well it seems God had to convince my pea sized brain that it is him that I crave, not her wisdom. Slowly God has allowed things to be taken away in my life that again my mind and body is convinced that I need, most of these are taken away by my choice. Food was the first thing. It has always had a hold on me. I have found that if it is in the house I will eat it. It makes my body feel tired and I find that I am so depressed that I have a hard time serving my family. Then the medicines I was on. Next FOR ME was Face book. I found that it occupied most of my time I again "craved" it. I enjoyed getting on it and escaping my world and going into someone elses for a bit. At first Ronnie and I decided to be apart of the face book world to be a witness. We have shared the gospel and have encouraged many many souls as well as my soul being encouraged. You see Ronnie has come from a place that most don't know. He has not always feared God as he does now. For people from his past to see the MAN that he is now and his service to our LORD it causes them to ask a lot of questions and in turn we are able to share with them HOW he has changed. But in this I got caught up in the everyday montough of people's comings and goings and even posted some of my own. This past week some comments were posted on FB and I found that I fumed on them all day. The next day It was like a light bulb moment for me...if I didn't have FB I would have never seem these comments hence I would have not even have allowed them to enter my mind. Such a simple thing. I decided to deactivate my FB account. As I did it I felt nervous...how will I connect? How will people get in touch with me. We are talking 600 friends on FB that Ronnie and I read and kept up with! How utterly exhausting! As I deleted that account I felt a freedom like no other. I felt as if I had lost a load of baggage. The next thing we decided to get rid of is Netflix. Our family so enjoys watching movies and shows anytime streaming through our wii. We mostly watch nature shows and documentaries (me). We are trying to cut costs anywhere we can right now and I thought well 8 bucks a month is not so bad. But I am convicted...we have plenty of movies and can do other things besides watch Netflix. Again this is what is working for our family. I am also dropping long distance and caller ID from our phone. The last and most recent thing is the INTERNET! Yes I said it. I need to see if I can absolutely live without it. You may say just limit yourself just don't get on it, guess what I will get on it, I have tried. Again just like the food, if it is in the house I will eat it, watch it get on it etc. I have been studying Romans. It has become clear to me more than ever that I depend on so much more that just GOD. My top goal in life is to be in a relationship with him...so close that he is more real than the hand in front of my face. I am excited about this journey. Will keep you posted. I will be blogging once a week from somewhere else. And in the mean time I will also be saving a TON of money and spending lots of time with my sweet precious little girls and preparing our home for their Daddy.
